Looking out into the Indian traffic the mind boggles. Vehicles moving this way and that, crossing randomly over what I might imagine to be lanes in the road. Horns honking in short bursts and long wails; the huge lorries honk with short melodies and the chundering busses with a deep throated rumbling ‘hoooooonk-aly-hooooooooook’. On the … More Motor mayhem or mastery?
Six months into my stay in India and the WTF phase has well and truly kicked in. Now my visa has just six months left. Which means my psyche is starting to see a threshold, a date it keeps getting caught on. The perceived limit on my time in India throws my monkey mind into … More WTF am I doing?
My initial, limited knowledge of the concept of Karma left me angry and resentful. The notion is often simplified to the idea that if bad things happen to me in this life it is due to the fact I have done bad things in a previous life. So if my father abused me when I … More What is Karma?
From the Himalayas back to southern India I find a feeling of familiarity, I’ve been here before. Familiarity feels homely; I feel a relaxation in sights and smells my senses recollect from my last stay here. Summer is blossoming in Europe. My social media is full of photos from back ‘home’. Seeing the English rolling … More Take me home to the place I belong
23 years on and that date is seared in my mind as strongly as it has ever been. The worst day of my life. A day that irrevocably changed the lives of so many people like ripples forming in a pond. No – more like waves crashing around a huge boulder rammed into the once … More 18th June 1994
This morning I heard a friend had died. The four year old girl inside me wails, she can’t understand the loss of her father. A separation she experienced before she had words to understand or memory to remember. Her wordless pain and confusion tear at my soul. I’m unable to distinguish the feelings of my … More Healing … PTSD, Samskaras and Karma
A feeling I’m not unused to, especially since I’ve been recovering from burn-out. A feeling that reminds of a hangover, eyes squinty, limbs heavy, no coordination, requiring herculean effort to walk up the stairs or even tap away on this keyboard. After hauling myself slowly up the stairs, which I can at other times cavort … More Befuddled Brain and Lead Limbs – Burn-out with a Mountain Backdrop
She rolls in over the clear night sky, clouds gathering silently overhead. The darkness of the night camouflage for her thick dark blanket now covering the mountain top. Unnoticed she has crept up and now has us completely shrouded in her cloak. She begins by humming gently, sweeping in circles around the peak. In ever … More The Wrath of the Iron Goddess
Seeing mountains from the plains down below they rise up in their vastness, tall and majestic but seemingly out of reach; it feels like they are aloof, the arrogant good looker saying ‘yes, you can look but you can’t touch’. Once engulfed in the Himalayan range the mountains feel welcoming; no longer am I merely … More The Great Himalayan Smile
As it warms up in south India I migrate northwards. Leaving the dizzy-making heat behind me, my body starts to recognise itself in the cooler climes; enjoying the cool nights, snuggling in a hoody and socks. I’m starting to feel the healthy impulses to carry out my small daily routines that were disrupted in the … More Migrating north – is authenticity the key to my energy?