WTF am I doing? 

Six months into my stay in India and the WTF phase has well and truly kicked in. Now my visa has just six months left. Which means my psyche is starting to see a threshold, a date it keeps getting caught on. The perceived limit on my time in India throws my monkey mind into … More WTF am I doing? 

18th June 1994

23 years on and that date is seared in my mind as strongly as it has ever been. The worst day of my life. A day that irrevocably changed the lives of so many people like ripples forming in a pond. No – more like waves crashing around a huge boulder rammed into the once … More 18th June 1994

Befuddled Brain and Lead Limbs – Burn-out with a Mountain Backdrop

A feeling I’m not unused to, especially since I’ve been recovering from burn-out. A feeling that reminds of a hangover, eyes squinty, limbs heavy, no coordination, requiring herculean effort to walk up the stairs or even tap away on this keyboard. After hauling myself slowly up the stairs, which I can at other times cavort … More Befuddled Brain and Lead Limbs – Burn-out with a Mountain Backdrop

Migrating north – is authenticity the key to my energy?

As it warms up in south India I migrate northwards. Leaving the dizzy-making heat behind me, my body starts to recognise itself in the cooler climes; enjoying the cool nights, snuggling in a hoody and socks. I’m starting to feel the healthy impulses to carry out my small daily routines that were disrupted in the … More Migrating north – is authenticity the key to my energy?

Watching the Ebb and Flow of my Energy – recovering from burn-out

Over the past month I’ve been finding a sense of balance. I’ve been taken in by an Indian family in Kerala; really been welcomed to their home and allowed to consider it my home too. I’ve had the chance just to take care of myself, not having to even worry about day to day planning, … More Watching the Ebb and Flow of my Energy – recovering from burn-out

Rest not Responsibility

I’m diligent, responsible and can be counted on; I do what I’ve promised and have a strong internal accountability to the people and things I’ve taken responsibility for. What if this isn’t because I’m an all round amazing person? What if this is instead just my carefully cultivated survival instinct? I take huge amounts of … More Rest not Responsibility