A disciplined, high achiever; structured, reliable and diligent. However 30 years of carrying the weight of the world on my shoulders and I seem to have become allergic to all the aforementioned behavioural patterns. Finally a wise man confirms and supports my hypothesis and recommends I live life like an artist, that I ‘live life … More Living Life Whimsically
The Phoenix, a mythical bird who burns up, and from the ashes rises again. My stress cycle reminds me so much of the Phoenix; the stress and friction inside me increase until a point where I’m unable to bring myself back to rest, after such a point the energy spirals out of control in compulsive … More Window of Tolerance, Stress and The Phoenix Cycle
Six months into my stay in India and the WTF phase has well and truly kicked in. Now my visa has just six months left. Which means my psyche is starting to see a threshold, a date it keeps getting caught on. The perceived limit on my time in India throws my monkey mind into … More WTF am I doing?
A feeling I’m not unused to, especially since I’ve been recovering from burn-out. A feeling that reminds of a hangover, eyes squinty, limbs heavy, no coordination, requiring herculean effort to walk up the stairs or even tap away on this keyboard. After hauling myself slowly up the stairs, which I can at other times cavort … More Befuddled Brain and Lead Limbs – Burn-out with a Mountain Backdrop
As it warms up in south India I migrate northwards. Leaving the dizzy-making heat behind me, my body starts to recognise itself in the cooler climes; enjoying the cool nights, snuggling in a hoody and socks. I’m starting to feel the healthy impulses to carry out my small daily routines that were disrupted in the … More Migrating north – is authenticity the key to my energy?
Over the past month I’ve been finding a sense of balance. I’ve been taken in by an Indian family in Kerala; really been welcomed to their home and allowed to consider it my home too. I’ve had the chance just to take care of myself, not having to even worry about day to day planning, … More Watching the Ebb and Flow of my Energy – recovering from burn-out
I’m diligent, responsible and can be counted on; I do what I’ve promised and have a strong internal accountability to the people and things I’ve taken responsibility for. What if this isn’t because I’m an all round amazing person? What if this is instead just my carefully cultivated survival instinct? I take huge amounts of … More Rest not Responsibility
Chronic fatigue, burn-out, exhaustion, breakdown; this condition is not new, it has had a myriad of names over the ages; it presents itself in as many ways as there are people, ranging in severity and symptom pattern. Alike, we all have had an overload of the system and some or many of our basic system … More Back to work after burn-out
Most of my life I’ve had my antenna out and on high alert. I’ve always found it exhausting to be around people, it can take me days to recover from a weekend visitor. I find I can swing from being worried incase I am considered too exuberant, talking too much, overstaying or overplaying my social … More Remaining centred and staying true to myself