I’m searching for silence. I’m desperate for silence. Every which way I turn my ears are offended by the hums and buzzes of man made contraptions; white noise, the noise we have become accustomed to and is accepted as a part of our daily lives; a part most of us learn to filter out. The … More The Sound of Silence
Depression and I go back a long way. After all these years she is still a bit of a mystery, always slipping into the shadows whenever I try to look at her head on; a mirage on the horizon that I never can get a firm grip on. But I’m starting to see that depression … More Depression a-knock-knock-knocking at your door
As I comfortably share my experiences and reflections around topics I’ve become at home with I find it so often leads me to beautiful places in others souls as they feel safe enough to entrust me with their own shadow side. My life’s work over the last two years has been unravelling my past, picking … More The Magic of Speaking Openly
They say we shouldn’t wait eternally for the circumstances to be perfect before we find contentment. We should be content in the moment where ever that may be. While this is true if we wish to avoid suffering (suffering is caused by wishing that the moment was different than it is) it does not mean … More The Power of the Places that Surround Us
Gently sliding my trolly out from the stack and rolling it fluidly on the smooth floor into the supermarket. Wandering in to the shopping area I’m greeted by a sense of calm. Colourful fruits and vegetables are stacked artistically and in such a way that I can see an overview of the entire fruit and … More Mindful Supermarket – This is also India!
A disciplined, high achiever; structured, reliable and diligent. However 30 years of carrying the weight of the world on my shoulders and I seem to have become allergic to all the aforementioned behavioural patterns. Finally a wise man confirms and supports my hypothesis and recommends I live life like an artist, that I ‘live life … More Living Life Whimsically
The Phoenix, a mythical bird who burns up, and from the ashes rises again. My stress cycle reminds me so much of the Phoenix; the stress and friction inside me increase until a point where I’m unable to bring myself back to rest, after such a point the energy spirals out of control in compulsive … More Window of Tolerance, Stress and The Phoenix Cycle
Looking out into the Indian traffic the mind boggles. Vehicles moving this way and that, crossing randomly over what I might imagine to be lanes in the road. Horns honking in short bursts and long wails; the huge lorries honk with short melodies and the chundering busses with a deep throated rumbling ‘hoooooonk-aly-hooooooooook’. On the … More Motor mayhem or mastery?
Six months into my stay in India and the WTF phase has well and truly kicked in. Now my visa has just six months left. Which means my psyche is starting to see a threshold, a date it keeps getting caught on. The perceived limit on my time in India throws my monkey mind into … More WTF am I doing?
My initial, limited knowledge of the concept of Karma left me angry and resentful. The notion is often simplified to the idea that if bad things happen to me in this life it is due to the fact I have done bad things in a previous life. So if my father abused me when I … More What is Karma?